I haven’t published a blog as regularly as I did last year and the reasons are twofold.
2022 has been a tough year for me and has left me vulnerable in too many ways.
It was a big anniversary year. Thirty years is a long time, but there are days when it only seems like yesterday that we lost our son. I’ve felt sadder than usual this year and I wonder if it’s because I’ve actually told people how I feel about losing him. How that child, who on a molecular level, is still with me or is it because as I get older I’m reflecting on my life more.
I’m in an anxiety loop and this is what it looks like.
I push beyond my well-being and can’t say no to additional work. When I mean work I don’t mean the paid sort, but just stuff that gets piled onto my to-do pile.
As the list gets longer and longer everything crashes down on me and I don’t do any of the things on my list.
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